I wanna cherish my parents

Im not a daughter who bring my parents out on weekends, I do not bring them to shopping centers, when they ask me where to go on weekends, I rather stay home. When they ask me out for dinner, I rather ask them to buy me food on their way back after dinner.
Mom is a babysitter who babysits 2 kids during weekdays. Dad is retired. financial is always a problem and dad always worry about it and too many worries becomes nag, and too many nagging becomes annoying and irritating. There was once dad and I nearly fight because of money issue. Relationship with dad really isn’t as good as before..
Thinking twice, is it my fault? Actually I can say it is. He should be having a good retiring life. My mom should be retired too.. They should be travelling around. And not just sitting in the house doing nothing.
Everytime I pray or wish for something, I always wish that they have long lives.
And I wish someday I can bring them to travel. That would make them so happy.

Recently someone I know passed away because of cancer. And I have a friend from a game which is quite close that we chat everyday actually have cancer too.. I know I must appreciate her. I send her card, make her felt craft thing and send to her. She’s in the USA. That’s why I’m sending cards and little stuffs.
And these few days, I wondered, why can I treat a person I know from a game with heart, why can’t i do this to my dad? When we sometimes see elderly outside asking questions or stuff, we are willing to help, and in a good manner we will speak to them softly. Why can’t i do this to my dad?

From the day I was born until now, why can’t I tolerate him a little by talking to him softly when he ask me how to upload photos from phone to facebook? Recently he is kinda forgetful. It’s like every 2 to 3 days he will ask me how to send photos to fb or how to transfer pic from his cellphone to the computer. I was frustrated coz this repeats soo many times!!!
But recently I try to teach him step by step. I wanna learn how to cherish my dad. I wanna learn how to treasure my parents. I know I’m very grateful that i still have my parents with me. And I don’t wanna regret someday for ignoring or not taking them too seriously.. And like always I hope they will have long life and live happily every after with no worries..

I miss akiki

Just watched a video about the reunion of a dog and the owner. Makes me think of my lost dog so much.
My dog Kiki, when she was raped or maybe she was having fun with another male dog which left her and the other dog sticking butt to butt, I cried..
When she was pregnant and moody and tried to eat a chicken bone out of the trash bin, I took the bone away from her worrying she might choke and she bit me, I scolded her and I cried…
When she gave birth to 4 little puppies and her look was so tired, pale and exhausted, I cried…
When I have to put her to my brothers place as I’m staying in condo and I can’t keep her with me, I cried…
When she ran away from my brothers house and can’t be found anywhere, I cried…
It was more than 5 years and i still miss her so so much, I cried..
I miss her..
Ahh luahan suara hati..

Mid autumn

It’s mid autumn festival today. But I don feel it at all.. When I was small, I used to bring lantern and walk around tamans. I love to see candles and lanterns very much. when i’m living in terrace house areas, neighbors would decorate their house with lanterns, hanging them on trees and lighting candles all over the gate and floor.

Time passed and I moved out ..But still I will go back home to my parents house .. To have dinner, moon cake and at play with candles.

Niece celebrated birthday on Saturday. There was 2 lanterns that my parents bought, one for my niece and another one for my nephew.. I think for them, I’m all grown up.. Don need to play lantern. There was one year I fought with my mom coz she never buy me a lantern. I never spoke to her for few days. Then she end up buying me a lantern. This year I never say anything about wanting a lantern. But deep in my heart I really want one..

Seems like I’m not getting a lantern from anyone unless I’m buying it myself..

Happy mid autumn festival..


My Diet Diary


Been hearing some same old shit lately like the word “FAT

well.. i think its time for me to get in shape again.. but this time the healthy way.. Diet and exercising.. Am so in the mood that i need to write about it everyday. As my blog here is more to my stories and my feelings and stuffs.. so i decided to blog my diet diary at petpetkia.blogspot.commy diet diary


tiu.. not blogging here for so long.. i cant even find the Font color to post..

Driving outstation

When I was a kid, everytime when my parents bring me to kampar.. in less than 5 minutes I can immediately sleep at the back seat..

And today im fetching my parents to kampar.. im feeling so sleepy while driving and I see them sleeping like kids..  time really flies…


After 1/2 hour or so.. dad woke up and wanna pee..  I stopped at the rest stop and mom asked me am I sleepy and I say yes.. then we all switch places and I quickly went to the backseat with my bolster and Zzzzzzzz…  when I woke up we r already in kampar.. hehe

Out of a sudden I feel that I love my parents and im really grateful ..

oh im so emotional hehe

funny mom

as usual after drink.. the next day.. im having headache..

was complaining how headache i am to my mom.. 

and out of a sudden she say..

mom : look for husband.. no need to look for handsome guy..  

me :  ????

mom :  as long as he treat you good and rich then it’s enough.

me :   how come i say headache and you suddenly talk about looking for husband??

mom : if you can find a good and rich guy to get married then u wont need to work and drink every nite.